KATE Ferdinand has admitted to "feeling all types of guilt" after struggling to feed her newborn baby Cree and change his nappy.
The former Towie star, 29, gave birth to her son via an emergency C-section and has been left black and blue and in pain.
In a frank admission to fans, Kate – who is married to football star Rio Ferdinand – has said she's really struggled with the pain during her recovery.
As a result, she has not been able to be as hands-on with Cree as she so desperately wants to be.
Writing on Instagram, the new mum said: "I’ve felt like I can’t do what I’m meant to be doing with Cree as I haven’t been able to change or feed him consistently which has had me feeling all types of guilt, for Cree, Rio & that I can’t be doing what I normally do for the kids."
Kate is step-mum to Rio's children, 14-year-old Lorenz, 12-year-old Tate, and nine-year-old Tia, who he shares with late wife Rebecca.
She has admitted to being "overwhelmed" by happiness, but also by tears.
"After having an emergency c section, and a bit of a traumatic birth I’ve been completely wiped out," Kate also wrote. "The happiness has been overwhelming but so have the tears and emotions."
Kate's honest admission comes as she revealed the bruising she suffered as a result of Cree's birth.
One fan reassured Kate: "I gave birth 4 weeks ago via c section and I feel every single word of this. C section recovery is nothing I could have prepared for and is so so so much tougher than I expected."
The fan continued: "The hardest thing for me, aside from the pain 😩 has been being so reliant on everyone and not being able to just get up and about."
Another follower wrote: "I had an emergency section and the guilt is real! I'll never take anything for granted again."
A third simply told Kate: "You've had a massive surgery, remember that."
Last week, pals told The Sun that the couple were “over the moon” about the arrival of their tot.
On Thursday, the proud parents shared the first glimpse of their little one in a sweet snap of Rio and the kids gathered around their Christmas tree in matching green pyjamas.
The top of his little head could be seen as he laid peacefully in the arms of the football star's second eldest son.
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